Hello.

Hello, dear readers!

Yesterday I came home from a month long stay in hospital. I was paralyzed from the waist down, had to have nurses bring me a potty to shit into while laying helplessly in my bed and so on. Quite the humbling experience, as I am sure you can imagine.

Legs came back to me, to my great, big relief and I now walk better and more normal than I did say six weeks ago. They never found any physical reason for my getting paralyzed, but it became horribly clear how badly a certain way too over-marketed neural pain killer called Lyrica affected me. My symptoms matched those of MS disease, basically. I got examined as thoroughly as possible and I am forever thankful for that and as they lowered my dose of Lyrica (that was originally prescribed to me to help control neural pain that was caused by a damage to a nerve while having a surgery performed to my badly broken ankle back in January 2011), the mysterious and horrible symptoms started to disappear.

These symptoms / side-effects included and were not limited to:

-problems urinating

-central neural system going to a state of an overload

-involuntary shaking

-sensations of numbness and tingling in my limbs

-difficulties walking smoothly, “normally”, movements getting “robotic”

et cetera. I have now also gotten an official diagnosis of Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (hypermobility type) and this has helped me tremendously with understanding why my body has been over-sensitive, ill and achy all my life. I now finally know the cause for all my intensive chronic pain and enjoy having the diagnosis so that I get finally taken seriously by doctors and nurses when in pain. No more shrugging, no more telling me it’s just all in my head. Such a great big number of all sorts of problems with my body are now understood and what’s best is that I myself can now begin to understand my physical condition and begin to learn to be a bit more respectful and understanding towards my limitations in life.

Anyway.

I hope to return to my usual posting schedule little by little and even start doing outfit posts again. But it will take some time, as I'm positive you, dear readers, can understand. Also the nature of my writings will change into a bit of a more personal direction perhaps, due to the changes my identity is going through etc.

That's all for now. Toodles!

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Hello, beloved readers.

I just wanted to make a quick post, for it has once again been a while since I've posted here.

My hiatus from proper blogging (- not sure if it's ever even been "proper blogging" here, haha) will continue for a while still. See, this month of August brings a huge change into my daily life and adapting to it both physically and mentally will most likely drain my energies for a moment. I'm still unwell, too, and to be honest, a little anxious about how my body will take the changes that the latter half of this month will bring.

But I'm not letting it drag me too deep into a hole of despair. Spending my time making tiny arty things happen is such a good way of relaxing.

I know I'll be fully back in the blogging life better than ever, just you wait! Hehe. Emma in a pile of clothes (and shoes too, ohmegod my collection of shoes has expanded in such a rapid pace I don't know whether to laugh or cry), version 2.0.

... Or something like that. For now, it's toodles and well-wishes, good thoughts and calm nights for everybody reading this!

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Hello again. It's yours truly again, reporting from my bed-turned sick-bed. Remember me whining about my head aching about a week ago in one of the outfit posts? Yeah. As it turns out, my pollen allergies have taken the best out of me and have upgraded themselves into a rather nasty case of sinus infection.

Blergh.

Why I am telling you this? Because the last few days left of the  monochrome week will be put on hold for yet some more days. Which sucks donkey balls so to speak, but is not that serious a thing. Anyway. I'm going to leave you with a charming webcam photo I took of myself just now:

There. I shall be back soon, hopefully! Til then, take care and be well and happy, dear readers!

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Hello, dear reader and happy Tuesday to you (or Wednesday or Monday, whatever day it is where you are)!

As you may have noticed, there has been a pause of the most unfortunate kind here in my blog, regarding the daily "a week in monochrome" outfit posts. For that, I deeply apologize.

You see, I've been stricken really unwell with the most annoying of tediousness: a really f*ucking awful case of PMS. Yes, that's quite right. Now the malignity that inhabited my poor brain for a time that seemed like a forever and more has passed (for the time being...) and we'll be returning to our normal schedule as soon as yours truly gets her sh*t together again and gets rid of some of the bloatyness that happened because of copious amounts of chocolate (my arch nemesis).

So, if things go according to my careful wishes, you might even see the next installation of the monochrome week tomorrow. The day after that, the latest! Toodles til then!